Sunday's passing but I don't yet want Monday.

That's so obviously me not living in the present. Instead of enjoying Sunday, I'm obsessing about how it's flying by - a lazy Sunday that's actually zooming - and worrying that when I next awake, if I awake, it will not be the weekend where I get to sleep in, if I want to. I think it's b/c I'm really freaking tired from taking my Sicilian cousins around NYC on Saturday. We didn't even hit a lot of sites, per se, but it was all day in the Sun and we walked through approximately 1/4 of Central Park & then saw Lincoln Center. "Leencohn Centairrrr", as they pronounce it.

Today was another beautiful day to be outside, and I was very early on, trying to nap in a lawn chair in the yard on LI where my parents live (the home they own is the one in which I grew up) but that was all I got to taste of the sun and the wind. We remained indoors today, watching DVDs of photos from Italy, some of my monologues and generally catching up and "resting." No more tourismo - they spent the week w/ my parents seeing the Statue of Liberty, Ellis Island, Ground Zero, Rock Ctr., St. Patrick's, blah-blah-blah. They saw The Lion King on Fri. night b/c it's pretty universal and my cousin's 10 yr. old son was ecstatic. And they kicked NYC's tourism ass and we stayed home today. Great! Terrific! I love to rest. I like saying that I actually had a break from the workweek, but now, at 8:41 p.m., I am sad that the sun went down w/out my knowledge and it's suddenly LATE and I feel I've wasted a beautiful day indoors. Silly, as I developed a slight headache yesterday evening from being too much in the sun, perhaps...but STILL. I wanna go back in time, at least a few hours, and sit on the lawn again. Oh, the idiotic regrets I have and not appreciating the moment...shame on me! I know, I'm being foolish, but I am being honest.

Where will this blog lead? Will I have the guts to give my real name and add this to my website someday? Probably - there's always love out there to protect me.

Enjoy living in the moment. Enjoy every moment. Agua